I often feel stuck, or trapped.
I have negative thought loops that try to convince me that if things are bad now, they’ll always be this way. One of my inner monsters insists, you cannot escape this.
I start to believe, even though it isn’t accurate, that things have always been bad and will always be bad. I get caught in trauma-land and can no longer see a way out.
In recovery, my mantra has become: Let The Light In.
I often visualize being stuck as being inside a taped-up cardboard box.
Letting the light in means ripping a hole in the ceiling of the box for a sliver of sunlight.
🌟 Let The Light In is a reminder that there IS something else going on outside of my tunnel-vision and catastrophizing.
🌟 Let The Light In can be a verbal cue that things are not always as they seem. It’s a quiet fact-check. A quiet challenge to my inner critics and monsters.
🌟 Let The Light In is gentle because the smallest beam of light is enough to remind me that other options exist. It doesn’t have to be a lit-up arena or complete, blinding, light.
🌟 Let The Light In can be a meditation where I invite Source Energy or Divine Light into my system to remind me, I am made of stardust and possibility.
🌟 Let The Light In can be whatever I, or you, need.
My wish for you is…
You find a time where you can Let The Light In and hold space for the possibility that things aren’t as they seem and maybe, they could be better.
I’d ❤️ to hear how it goes for you if you do decide to experiment and Let The Light In. Of if you have a similar reminder for yourself.
Big love,
Leigh
PS. This song has become my personal anthem for Let The Light In. I imagine it as a conversation between all of my parts and younger selves.
I love this, Leigh. Thank you for writing it.
Funnily enough, in my work we use the metaphor of being “in the box” to describe the exact state you’ve named here - being caught in the traps of our minds, and being dysregulated. I don’t explicitly talk about cPTSD at work, but it resonates a lot with people.
I’ll definitely check the song out. J x